Shhh! The Babies Are Sleeping

Dear Kate,

When I look at you I often think, this is the person that changed my life forever. No other person would have effected me the way you have, it had to be you and I am grateful. You are curious, you are sweet, you are emotional, you are interesting, you are challenging. I'm not sure if your short temper is a learned attribute (everyone knows it could have only come from me), but it's changed me more than anything else. I see you struggle to get your head and heart around a moment, and I know what that feels like. I see your indignation, your courage, your determination and I feel like I know myself better because I know you. When people doubt that you can do something, I don't. When you say something thoughtful, my heart soars. You surprise me all the time. You make me wonder if I can be all that I need to be so that you can succeed. I am conflicted because I want so many things for you and it doesn't seem one lifetime is long enough to experience it all. I realize that people have similar moments in life, they learn similar things through trial and error. My experiences as a Mom might not be unique, but they are mine and I'm glad I get to experience them with you.



Dear Anna,

I am sorry that you had to cry yourself to sleep today. There is something so very sad about your cry in particular, I know you're not used to it, crying that is. I wish I could protect you from any sadness, but then I would be very sad because the kitchen would be filthy and I would wonder what I had done all day. You look at me like I can do anything, like you think I'm wonder woman, and a beautiful one at that. You look so much like your Daddy that it reminds me that he used to look at me that way :) You make me happy and bring me peace and I'm glad you're mine.