Thursday, August 14, 2008
The Truth
5 years ago today Spencer and I were married. I've wanted to think about what that means and write down how I feel about our marriage, but I haven't gotten the chance until now. So bear with me while I work through my thoughts. I want to tell the truth, to paint an accurate picture so that in 5 more years I can compare that life to this one. When we got married we were beautiful, we spent a lot of time on ourselves and it was fun. We also spent a lot of time going out to eat, going to parties, talking with friends, and we spent every spare second with each other. I remember being so proud to walk around with him and to know that he picked me. When he looked at me I felt so lucky, powerful, and strong. I think that is really interesting. As I hadn't done much with my life at that point. I'd made a lot of good decisions, but I hadn't had much time yet. I hadn't even ever paid for my own car insurance. I'm much smarter now, I am much more powerful now. I run a family, we have a real income to manage and I'm CFO, I direct four people's lives and I do a pretty good job at it. But I don't get that same thrill. I wonder why that is? I've got to admit that I'm probably strong because Spencer supports me. His opinion is the most important to me, if he believes in me I can accomplish whatever. The time that he has hurt my feelings the most was when he doubted my ability. He's apologized, I only recall it because I want to show how much influence he has over me. What else do I want to document? Our problems are insignificant, sometimes I'm embarrassed by his driving, he is kind of hairy, he doesn't seem to know where anything is - ever. He's also extremely loyal, hardworking, intelligent, and generous and hopeful. I know that it's extremely important to him that I'm happy. All the ways that I've changed in the past 5 years are because of him, and I'm so glad that I can be proud of my changes. I've grown as a person in areas that I didn't even know existed and I will always be grateful to Spencer for that. I'm amazed at how much faith we have in each other and it is easy to see how important that relationship is. Thanks to you Slim.
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I think not knowing where things are is a guy thing. My dad still doesn't know where my mom keeps stuff, and they've been married for 45 years. Dave doesn't either, and we're going on seven. There is no hope.
You WERE both beautiful on your wedding day...but you're beautiful now too. You had the prettiest wedding I've ever attended. I still think about your cake and your dress. You were beautiful. Happy anniversary!
It's weird how we grow so dependent on our spouse's isn't it? I definitely look for Sean's support in everything and his support is all I really care about. And I too am embarrassed by Sean's driving!!
Wow five years!
Happy Anniversary. You two sound great together. And I echo Emily on the guys not knowing where things are comment. I told Duncan about what you had said about this right after he asked me where we keep the toothbrushes. Timing was too funny. Seriously, these husbands of ours- what'd we do without them?
I dont know if you ever knew this but I have always looked up to your marriage. From your wedding to the man that you chose I knew everything was done in the perfect way for you and I always wanted to emulate that. As you have had children and I have been able to see your marriage grow from afar it seems to get better and better. I feel the same way with my life but thank you so much for the wonderful example you have set for us younger cousins :)
Ahh Jules, you are too good to me. Thanks.
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