Monday, October 27, 2008

Frustration

I'm the oldest of 6, I have all the answers. I really like being right all the time. I like knowing the best of - you want a good dry cleaners, or place to buy vases, I can list a few. Or at least I used to. Moving here has been a real kick in the bum. I feel like I've lost that bit of myself; and that bit liked being useful and helpful. This need to be in the know really is based in trying to help others, and lately I feel like I don't know jack. I guess that's life. But it's funny how not knowing these answers flows into not being as confident in other areas. I hesitate more often. And although Spencer and I have been put to work in our local church and community it surprises me how often I feel like I don't know what's going on, I don't know who people are talking about, or where they're meeting. And worst of all I don't know what is expected of me. Maybe I'll figure it all out tomorrow.

5 comments:

Kim said...

Do you actually think that you've always been connected to reality? Hmmm...I never got that vibe from you. HAHA JK
When I moved 10 miles from Provo to Cedar Hills, it still took me a good 6-8 months to get things straight. I give you double that to be back in the know!

Emily said...

I feel you sister. Every time I move I feel that way for a good year or two. I'm sure your move is much bigger than any of my moves though, and so mostly all I can say is I'm sorry, and I hope it gets better. And I do know a little of how you feel, although not totally I'm sure.

So...I might be coming to LA the week before Thanksgiving. Will you be around?

Unknown said...

i totally know what you mean ;)

Rachel said...

Andrea! I am a total know it all! You can come to me for all your questions about the area...it took me awhile, but I've been here for like 5 years and I have two kids...what do you need to know...I'm there for ya babe!! Plus, we should hang out sometime after the election, don't you think?

Andrea J said...

Emily, yes! Please come, or I'll meet you wherever you are :)

Rachel, we're going to your dentist tomorrow, you've helped so much. And I'd love to hang out, I'll be so glad on Nov. 5th :)